So I woke up this morning sweating and hot because the AC wasn't as high up as I thought it was, and I didn't feel very good. I read the paper in the bathroom and moped about. My day took a turn for the up when I showered and went out for breakfast with dad, and I was pretty content drawing, albeit I was jumping from activity to activity in boredom. I was frustrated, to say the least. I was uninspired and easily bored. So Russ called me up and wanted me over there. To tell the truth, I was almost not wanting to go, because I wasn't in too good a mood, I felt shy, I was frustrated and Russ seemed like he was in a better mood than I, which bothered me for most superficial reasons which I won't go into here. So I had lunch (my second big meal of the day) packed up the GC and a few decks of cards and went over there. I was shy, I was angry, and I was frustrated. I swore alot. I didn't really want to be there, but I went anyway. I figured it would either put me in a great or a terrible mood. We started with some melee, and it was a vibe I didn't want to be in. I was upset. I was frustrated. I didn't want to be there. So I played a couple rounds, put up with miller's whining about every level, and basically had a crappy few rounds. I couldn't say so, however, because I didn't want to argue with miller. So then a couple people played guitar (no offense, but there is way too much guitar in my life and it's frustrating) and Russ finished a few things in Melee and then we went up to eat. It remained loose and disconnected and the atmosphere still sucked. I was bloating myself at that point, I couldn't eat anymore. It was uncomfortable. We then watched The Royal Tenenbaums. The movie itself was bad. A few scenes I laughed at, but it was bad. It put me in a crappy mood further, and the only scene I remember was the part where the guy makes out with his adopted sister. And damn, that pissed me off for obvious reasons. KatieJohn were snuggled up for two hours as well, which bothered me for the same reason. DeanaRuss were not at eye level so I can't complain about them. I was very uncomfortable, it sucks to be a teenager. Russ was bitching at me, and it's my fault because I don't want to argue otherwise and besides it will give another blow to my self esteem if he has to prove himself right. So I got away from the crappy movie, the irritating miller, the clingy couples, the complaining russ and I got in my car, a couple people got to the El and I went home, and I'm here now. So my day was pretty shitty. It fucking rhymes. I have work tomorrow, and I don't want to go. Oh, hurray. I'm up an hour forty later than I should be, so I'll be passing out all tomorrow.
You know, If you took offense because I was angry at you, don't be. I had a very crappy day and I'm letting it out on you people, whoever's fault it is. I say it's mine because I'm not in an arguing mood.
It sucks being 15. Awful age to be at, and I wish I was... I don't know. I can't say too much without people saying I have a serious problem, which I don't because I'm 'overreacting'. Especially when you're not in love and your friends are, when you have a short temper and your friends are irritating (yeah, read that last paragraph if you feel like picking a fight with me, because I'm in no mood to fight with any of you) and most importantly when you can only say why not when you're in a crappy mood.
Gambling sucks. I took a gamble, and I was wrong.