staff cuts have socked up the overage
directives are posted.
no callbacks, complaints.
everywhere is calm.
This has been the worst week of my life. The invincibility that I felt just 3 or 4 weeks ago is gone, and my depression and overall overwhelmedness is totally gone.
Hong Kong is present
Taipei awakes
all talk of circadian rhythm
It's happened forever, really. In first grade my summertime depression was so crippling I went to a psychiatrist. Every summer I hit this cycle, but this summer... this one's different.
I see today with a newsprint fray
my night is colored headache gray
daysleeper
daysleeper
This summer has been overwhelming and awful. My schedule clicks so well that there's no downtime. The vacation comes very late in the break. Work is every day, making me lose sleep and skip any allday plans. Worse yet, there's nothing that can relax me. It took a very long time to find anything that would interest me for a long enough time to calm down, and I see that lasting for a week or two, if not less.
the bull and the bear are marking
their territories
they're leading the blind with
their international glories
I'm the screen, the blinding light
I'm the screen, I work at night.
I see today with a newsprint fray
my night is colored headache grey
don't wake me with so much.
daysleeper.
I feel alienated, burnt out, disappointed, and bored, to use some new words. This is more difficult than it ever has been before.
I cried the other night
I can't even say why
fluorescent flat caffeine lights
its furious balancing
What's more, I'm trying to calm myself, to release myself, and I'm realizing I have an addiction. To AIM, to Diaryland. I feel crippled without them, moreso than I already do.
I'm the screen, the blinding light
I'm the screen, I work at night
I see today...
don't wake me with so much. the
ocean machine is set to 9
I'll squeeze into heaven and valentine
my bed is pulling me.
gravity
daysleeper.
daysleeper.
daysleeper.
daysleeper.
daysleeper.