The story of a transformation to a hopeless romantic/geek to someone who's genuinely awesome, in one way or another.

A depressed punk with this endless longing for someone to care about him to a comfortable loner.

So it starts with the bitch system.

While Bitch v0.5 increased my pathetic longing for love and v0.75 made me discerning, v1.1 made me despise everything associated with the term. A single relationship can make you adverse to the concept that is one of the most driving forces in the world.

I do believe that a little of it was carried on in the pursuit of Television. That is, 24. Not only is it something that other people dig, but it gives me something to obsess over.

Some comes from, oddly enough, Ben Folds. He's a wonderful musician, but I haven't been listening to him terribly often. However, he's touring with Ben Kweller. Without Ben Kweller, I would never be interested in Ozma, and probably would have discarded okgo. Musically, I have turned myself from a adamant defender of the mainstream to a discarder of popular culture and instead an embracer of indie. While I used to endlessly spin Matchbox Twenty and whatever else was hip, now I'm discovering pure unkempt joy in okgo and Ben Kweller. Even Ozma sometimes. Soul Coughing is in there on a regular basis. okgo's "Get Over It" is the quintessential rock song ever. In fact, I'm convinced that okgo is the best rock band out there. Ben Kwelller has this really geeky feel to him that makes everything you could do cool. Soul Coughing makes you wish you played the bass.

Most of all, I think that my reinvention has a lot to do with overloading on work. A particular spirit of unenthusiasm.

And my total and complete preoccupation with my band. Yep.
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