10:17 p.m.
April 21, 2003
I'm still asleep.
Nej is upset. Jamie is weird. Cree is sparse. Heather is upset. Julie's a bitch. Joe's the same as I was, once. Kaitlyn's alright. Russ is gone. Deana's excited. Keru is busy.
I just have too much to worry about.
Explode
Spur of the moment
I want to explode
I want to spread myself out
I want to knock myself around
I want to push myself into pieces
I want to lay around
I want to float down
I want to jump
I want to fly
I want to explode
I want to write songs
I want to type out lyrics all night long
I want to visit friends
I want to let it all end
I want to fall asleep
I want to fall into last week
I want to jump around
I want to never hit the ground
I want to think
I want to breathe
I want to explode
So let me explode
Baby, I just can't keep me together
Just wanna explode
And bounce off the walls
Everything's getting to me
I don't know who to be
I want to explode
I want to wake up
I'll wake up from this bad dream
I want to imagine
I'll imagine everything that's possible to me
Don't close your eyes
Don't remember me
I want to meet you in last week
I want to make you happy
So let me explode
Baby, I just can't keep me together
Just wanna explode
And bounce off the walls
Everything's getting to me
I don't know who to be
I want to explode
Explosion suicide
Floating clouds of pesticide
Supernova in the sky
Ancient Greek fratricide
Late night writing every time
Type by artificial light
Leap right out and break apart
I could be just who you are
So let me explode
Baby, I just can't keep me together
Just wanna explode
And bounce off the walls
Everything's getting to me
I don't know who to be