10:43 p.m.
April 30, 2003
I found out something.

You've heard that I don't sleep well.

It's not about APUS or Volleyball or Latin anymore.

It's me.

It's me, because I can't make myself fall asleep. I'm still up at 10:43 because I look at my bed and I don't feel asleep. I'm so tired but that's not how I go to sleep. I go to sleep at midnight. Maybe after.

I didn't have homework tonight, and yet I'm stretching my evening. I'll pay for it tomorrow morning, I'm sure, but I can't get to sleep. I can't get myself away. In the past, it's been because of Nejjy. But she's not on as much. Or maybe I'm not. Who knows. I do know that I stay up to talk to friends, even if none are online.

I'm looking for some validation in other people. I just need to talk to someone most days of the week. It's late at night and I need to talk to someone. Because I'm out wherever I am and my friends are DnDing or at school or working or whatever.

So I stay up late. I catch up. I pay for it, but I'm still up.

I just paused winamp. Time to work.

electric

Spur of the Moment Production

Crash, bang, clatter and drizzle

Fall, smack, explode and fizzle

Roar, pounce, scream and rip

Open, pull, rustle and clip

Tap, tap, tap and rap

Slam, grunt, sigh and crap

Dial, beep, static and noise

Name, Address, Chicago, Illinois

Plink, plink, plink, plink

Sit, stare, breathe, blink

Slam, sputter, vroom, screech

Clomp, whump, call, preach

Can you hear me now?

Can you hear me now?

Can you hear me now?

Can you hear me now?

Click, trudge, fall, snore

[quick break]

Blare, slam, groan, snore

[quick break]

Yell, plunk, slide, take

Trudge, slam, click, wake

Wash, rinse, dry, clothe

Bitch, whine, complain, loathe

Pop, walk, door, door

Drop, read, rustle, snore

Can you hear me now?

Can you hear me now?

Can you hear me now?

Can you hear me now?


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