I talked to him for a long time about... things. About responsibility and motivation and relationships and fear and disappointment, and I pretty much established that he's one of the best overall guys I know. He shows respect to who deserves it and doesn't to who doesn't, isn't motivated because of a lack of passion (Which isn't that terrible - it just means he isn't terribly interested in what he's forced to learn), and... is just a good guy.
I say that because he was being really self-depreciating when he got here, and I think he was dumb in doing so.
He got here late last night (he gave me a rough time and overshot it, because he ate), and we did some stuff and he fell asleep, so eventually I went to sleep. He and andrew woke me up by talking, and he spent a good chunk of the day playing Jedi Outcast before I realized we could play an FPS - Red Faction. Fun stuff. He showered and I made him eat (which I felt slightly guilty about afterwards - it made him late and he got in trouble) and he left. I stopped at circuit city to grab Poodle Hat, finally. During the next few hours, I played a little red faction, worked on some homework, and kinda wondered how I could waste 4:30 so quickly. Since then, we've been up and talking.
I haven't been up to 2:30 AM since I met Nej and Cree, both of whom didn't really reply to my message I just sent them...
Things seem to be bad abound. It seems like no one is in a terrifically good mood anymore - everyone is just kinda down and out about things in general. Things seem to be falling apart rather than coming together.
I kinda want to get in a relationship just for that sake. Not really. Just sort of, mainly because there's no one I'm interested in, really.
Check me out.
It's not freshman year anymore. Hell, I'm nearly a Junior.
My motivation scares me. I can never get anything together, and I'm hoping to keep deleted together (but I fear it won't work). Also, the only thing keeping me from not failing all my classes is the fear of failure.