So to cap off a great weekend with Russs, it was kind of a crappy party. Maybe I just don't like parties much.
So Russs and I were the first ones there and we had a good time. Then people started getting there. People I don't know, but good people regardless.
Then there were more people. Somehow, I didn't feel in place. Half there were people I didn't want to talk to, half were people I didn't know. I eventually got the feeling Russs had similar sentiments. There was a point where they all started playing bridge, and Russs and I went inside and started talking for awhile. About how he was screwed from the start because he didn't want to do what they wanted to do, about how he felt ignored. Truth be told, I felt the same way and had felt the same way a lot in the past. I'm glad he's around, because it's a lot easier to be at a party where I feel uncomfortable if I have someone to share it with me. We sat around for a while, and russ told me we could go downstairs, play videogames and enjoy ourselves and get reprimanded later, or we could stay on the couch bored and not be reprimanded later. We managed to be bored for a while, but eventually headed downstairs. A few times Russs got genuinely angry. He was mad because someone said something... at one point I heard Miller say "So, is this just going to degenerate into watching videogames?" and I shot back, probably to deaf ears, "At least it's not watching charades." There would be comments, or whatever that just made him mad. Me? I'm even more disconnected, so I paid less attention to any comments.
We made unlikely allies. Polina came down at one point and was just angry because they were playing charades and she doesn't watch movies or TV and therefore couldn't participate. Another time, we were talking with Roxanne, who was also pretty angry at the goings-on. She felt left out and ignored. She hung out with us for a while until she found some Whitney guys to hang out with a little.
So the timeline of events...
Russ and I arrive, talk for 30-ish minutes with Deana and various arriving guests
An hour or two of various games including Mafia and that handshake game
Russ and I retreat to a couch for about half an hour
We go downstairs to play videogames
We go back up to see what the deal is, eat a little. Talk to Roxanne.
Go back downstairs, more videogames
Go back upstairs, I have to leave.
That's basically it. I feel kinda crappy for having to just hang out with russ the whole time, but hell, it's better than being awkward and uncomfortable.
I'm pretty upset right now. I got an instant message too late from deana, because I was downstairs, because my mom had to talk to me about everything I already knew about today.
I just want to go to sleep. Maybe I'll feel better tomorrow morning.