6:49 a.m.
June 11, 2003
I'm so interested in my sleep patterns. I slept awfully, and woke up wide awake. And I'm going to fall asleep in APUS.
Not because it's boring. Quite the contrary, we're watching movies. I'm going to fall asleep because that's what happens in period 2 everyday.
It feels hopeless, knowing you'll be exhausted, but not being exhausted yet. So all I can do is fall asleep, or grab some caffeine.
Hey, check out the really cool guy medley. It follows:
fell in love with a girl
i fell in love once and almost completely
she's in love with the world
but sometimes these feelings can be so misleading
she turns and says "are you alright?"
i said "i must be fine cause my heart's still beating"
"come and kiss me by the riverside yeah
bobby said he fine he don't consider it cheating" now
i believe, i believe, i believe,
i believe, the love you talk about with me, is it true? do i care?
honestly, you can try, to wipe the memories aside,
but its you, that you erase
'cause theres no place i could be without you,
its too far to discard the life i once knew,
honestly, all the weather storms i bring,
are just a picture of my needs
cause when i think of you as mine,
and allow myself the time,
to lean into the life we want, i feel love, honestly,
i feel love, cause honestly...
Truth covered in security
I can't let you smother me
I'd like to but it wouldn't work
Trading off and taking turns
I don't regret a thing
I've got this friend, you see
Who makes me feel
And I wanted more
Than I could steal
I'll arrest myself
And wear a shield
I'll go out of my way
To prove I still
Smell her on you
Give it away give it away give it away give it away
now
Give it away give it away give it away give it away
now
Give it away give it away give it away give it away
now
I can't tell if I'm a kingpin or a pauper
We get some rules to follow
That and this
These and those
No one knows
We get these pills to swallow
How they stick
In your throat
Tastes like gold
Oh, what you do to me
No one knows
And I realize you’re mine
Indeed a fool of mine
And I realize you’re mine
Indeed a fool of mine
Goddamn you half-Japanese girls
do it to me every time
oh, the redhead said you shred the cello
And I'm jello, baby
But you won't talk, won't look, won't think of me
I'm the epitome of Public Enemy
Why you wanna go and do me like that?
Come down on the street and dance with me
I'm a lot like you so please Hello, I'm here, I'm waiting
I think I'd be good for you and you'd be good for me
I asked you to go to the Green Day concert
You said you never heard of them
Mental homes and safety seal communities.
Did you remember to the pay the utility?
Gosh Darn Police Line You Better Not Cross!
Is it the cop, or am I the one thats really dangerous?
Sanitation, expiration date, question everything.
Or shut up and be a victim of authority
Warning. Live without warning
Say warning. Live without warning
Say warning. Live without warning
Say warning. Live without warning
Without. Alright.
You make me dizzy running circles in my head
One of these days I'll chase you down
Well look who's going crazy now
We're face to face my friend
Better get out
Better get out
You know you make me break out
Make me break out
I don’t want to look like that
I don’t want to look like that
You know you make me break out
Make me break out
I don’t want to look like that
I don’t want to look like that
You know you make me break out
The world is a vampire, sent to drain
Secret destroyers, hold you up to the flames
And what do I get, for my pain
Betrayed desires, and a piece of the game
Even though I know-I suppose I'll show
All my cool and cold-like old job
Despite all my rage I am still just a rat in a cage
Then someone will say what is lost can never be saved
Despite all my rage I am still just a rat in a cage
Can’t think of anything to do
Yeah my left brain knows that all love is fleeting
She’s just looking for something new
Yeah, I said it once before but it bears repeating now.