6:43 a.m.
September 16, 2003
Sleep is not something that can be enjoyed on a schedule unless you're breaking the rules. And then you feel guilty for breaking the rules. When you have to be asleep, you don't enjoy that drifting, when you have to be awake, you don't enjoy that lying there. This morning? I broke the rules. Turned my alarm off and slept until 6:10. Got up, went to the bathroom, was about to clothe but decided to go back to sleep. You cannot enjoy sleeping on a schedule - it's guilt, it's exhaustion, it's cramming too little into too much.

I love the feeling when you're fully realizing that you found something you lost ten minutes ago. I couldn't find my bus card and found it, and kind of stopped to bask in the sense of lack of frustration.
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