Just a few things happened today that made me very down.
One.
Sex and Highschool. Wrong, wrong, wrong. I don't want to have to think about it, but as long as it exists, I'll occasionally feel bad. Especially being a Junior. I am an upperclassman now. It shouldn't exist, but right now, it does, and that pisses the hell out of me.
Two.
I don't think I'm yet ready for school. Arch? I'm fine. Calc, Art, Spanish, I'm fine. But Tuesdays and Fridays, they worry me. I tried so hard in War Lit and I don't know how my essay went. And I pulled a Milo on our quiz and bombed, pulled a McWatt and crashed, pulled a Yossarian and edited the paper so it made no sense. Death to all Articles. History of Chicago? I have to do something every two weeks? And let's not forget Physics. Science Fair, Lab Reports, and the chapters. Plus, I'm looking at colleges, taking PSATs and ACTs... I'm in KCOR and Stage Crew this year, I'm trying to learn the guitar, I'm trying to draw, I'm trying to make money...
Today, I feel like Reinhold Messner. I just can't get anything going.