I promise, I'll be as in-depth as possible as soon as I can. For now, though, I don't want the pipeline starting up.

FAQ

Q: Do you have a crush?

A: Sort of.

Q: What do you mean, sort of?

A: I don't get crushes anymore, mostly because of bad past experience. I don't allow myself to get obsessed with everyone and I always question myself before becoming emotionally involved, and I rarely do anymore. I think this is a more mature level of myself than the me who had crushes, but I am interested in someone.

Q: Who is it?

A: I can't say until I act upon it.

Q: Do I know them?

A: Out of people who may read this diary, two of you.

Q: What makes this any more valid than your four crushes in freshman year, your one dating experience in sophomore year, or your earlier one this year?

A: One, it's attainable. I don't feel like I'm a million leagues away from the person in question, and I'm not talking Jules Verne style. I've had bad experiences with flirting, so I can say that I'm not doing that overtly. I'm not at all involved with their social group, so there's no bother there. Aside from that, I've seen a social group, and I've seen it's dysfunctions. I've seen what I wanted and I've seen it fall apart, and I'm much more down to earth than I was some months ago.

Q: What the fuck?

A: Yeah, I know. Thing is, you hear "we went on a date this" or "she's so fantastic" that and it just pounds on your mind, y'know? Plus, there's a lot of pure jealousy towards some of my better-liked friends.

Q: Again, what the fuck?

A: Oh, fuck you. I'm a teenager, and I refuse to have different views about everything.
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