I watched Office Space today, and even though I didn't intend it, it's the one movie that really ushers in this feeling that I've been having and will likely define my break:

"It's not that I'm lazy, it's that I just don't care."

I made a poster today and stuck it on my wall. I then looked at it and decided it was so cool, that I ought tell someone about it. Then I go down my buddy list and realize something - I don't have a single person there where their response would not depress me. I'd get a lot of "ok"s, or "cool"s. I'm expecting a response out of a lot of people who just don't give a shit.

And now, I really don't give a shit.

I really don't want to do anything. Today, I played some games with some people who don't give a shit about me, and I played Vice City and SimCity, and I watched a movie... I hit someone's bumpers, I skipped out on a movie because I didn't want to go...

People have groups. I, however, enter a group, find the decent-hearted people in their midst, and then leave. It depresses me to leave, but I do.

Move up, and let the man go, let the man go.

I'm buying more and more into this misanthropic bullshit. I find more and more people I hate, I see more and more things that people do that I'd never want to do. I'm rude to everyone (Hey, thanks, Bertha). Then I get regretful becvause people don't like me.

It's human nature to want people to like you, it's common logic not to like them.
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