my mind makes out my life to be much more wonderful than it is, it loads it with ideas.
i saw lost in translation tonight. it was obscenely beautiful.
these last few days... russ left, i saw myself as so old, hell, i brought myself to be friendly again, i thought about the future, i thought about changing who i was, i didn't think at all. i wonder if this is what always happens when your life changes so rapidly.
you're hopeless
spotlight on my elevation
only know that where you’re going is not so bad
the shine, it sleeps below me
and i don’t know what happens after that
just with this elevation
i don’t care about your squeaky lights
and leaving here’s all that’s left here
but I won’t let go of this
i can’t tell what you’re saying anymore
and i lost all memory
lost a memory
you’re speaking japanese
and i welcome your invitation
your radiation of hope and life
i don’t know what you’re saying
and hope it’s over by tomorrow night
i’m hurting in ways i’ve never felt before
this pen, the wall, it’s like a blank book
scribbles and lines and sketches
the posters on the wall are all torn down
this stupid desk, these stupid chairs
the stupid people all around
my headphones are busted
and my shades are all pulled down
i can’t tell what you’re saying anymore
and i lost all memory
lost a memory
you’re speaking japanese
and i welcome your invitation
your radiation of hope and life
i don’t know what you’re saying
and hope it’s over by tomorrow night
let’s see each other again
be sure to call me
i’ve been standing up a long long time
and I don’t don’t don’t
do this
i can’t tell what you’re saying anymore
and i lost all memory
lost a memory
you’re speaking japanese
and i welcome your invitation
your radiation of hope and life
i don’t know what you’re saying
and hope it’s over by tomorrow night
tomorrow night is just a memory