Through the last month of the school year, I found myself with far too little time, and yet, with one thing in my life changed, I have far too much.
Maybe that's a far-flung observation on how things are for me.
It's time we turned around.
I find that every few months, I take a step back and say, yes, I am absolutely happy with who I am. And then, some human-form disease comes along and throws that into question for me. I find that in my attempts to settle on who I am, I don't really settle on anything. Maybe that's worth settling upon. Maybe.
Who have I settled upon?
Right now, it's someone extremely dissatisfied. Not with himself. I'm dissatisfied with the world. I can't stand ignorance, and my hard spun beliefs get in my way far more often than intended.
I settled upon a person who knows that he can be happy, it's just at present circumstance, nothing makes it all that easy. If you want a more sensible point of view, It's not easy to be a highschooler who hates teenagers. Even harder when most that I've loved lately have been far my elder.
I don't desire drama and I don't desire idleness. I am the out of place.
But hey! Next year, all there is left to anticipate is next year. So that isn't too bad.