i don't think i'm used to this yet. any of this. on the one hand i still need to get used to the social attention. i mean, it's nice to have people saying "wow that is not joe" and you know this does all seem like a one-way ticket to recognition, as more and more people talk to me, but is that what i want? i've always taken pride in a small buddy list. grass is always greener, and all that, i suppose. a different breed of people are greeting me, so i guess i have to stay angry to fend them off. perhaps some day i will get a new breed of diary readers.

and then the other thing. dating. it's something to get used to. i mean, i think this is probably the worst time to get into one of these things just because so much of my time is already used up. this is when i'm feeling excited and ready to go, when she's all i can think about, and then, i barely get a chance to see her. i want so badly to see her alone. i love helping her with homework. i love playing songs for her over the phone. i love her face.

i guess it's a battle between me and time. time is marching on, as they say, and i intend to make the most of it, as best i can. i need to manage better. thing is, that's only half the deal. we need some serious lazy-opportunity.
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