This was easily one of the hardest things I've written. I didn't want to say a word wrong. On the other hand, it was welcome introspection, and it flattered some friends.

Writing this was exceedingly therapeutic. I realized a lot of things about people that I'd never realized before. What I like about Rian, for instance, or what I don't know about Max.

I finally feel as if I have Jenn off my chest. I do not need to deal with her anymore. I gave her my final fuck you, and she took it as a "Let's be friends". Whatever, we've established she's an idiot. But I have no reason to speak to her any longer, and I am happy for this reason. Ditto goes for John-boy.

At the same time, I feel like I've nailed a few things. I've established my friendship with a few people - Emma, Niki, etc. It's important to me - at the same time, I don't feel like people always get just how important I believe they are - even K. Ro was surprised. So maybe the expression needs some work.

And I got to reflect on things I haven't thought about in ages. My memories of Russ and Vicky, or the end of my friendship with Deana. It was nice - I really feel like I've been totally honest, altogether. I haven't denied anything based on hindsight.

There are a few people who I could have mentioned, but didn't make the eighteen. Liz, Kana, anyone who I've befriended online, no offense.

These are the eighteen I will remember.

Phew, I can start writing stream of consciousness shit again.
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