11:39 p.m.
May 17, 2005
So today, at one point, I was waiting in the stage crew booth. I was there, and so were a bunch of others, including Jetson, Jenn, and John-Boy. At one point, Jetson said something that just set me off. I proceeded to walk in circles through the hallways. Cross the first, Up to the second floor, to the third, back across the second and third and first. I walked fast. Saw a lot of people who knew who I was, breathed pretty heavily. I really couldn't control it. I wondered at that point if I was doing it consciously, but in comparison to my thought processes now, I wasn't. I just did it. I was nervous and panicking and just kept walking. I collapsed in a corner and played an intense round of cell phone bowling. I got up and started pacing and eventually went out to get some air, and some sodas. I had Migraine by Troubled Hubble on loop the whole time. I was moving quickly and unconsciously.

I bet it was a bunch of things. Watching a movie in psych, close proximity through CW, stress about work and plays and shit, and of course, the epicenter of evil. I don't know what a panic attack was, but that seemed like a good description for what I had.
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