I wrote an entry last night about being in a rut. And I'm in that rut, still, but I went too far in part of it, and said something I didn't mean.
I said I didn't think we were going anywhere. I didn't mean that.
In truth, I don't know where we're going.
My problem is that if I don't see you for a while, I assume everything is going poorly. Though it takes a big fucking lack of tact to put it on an online journal.
I'm a moron.
This is the best thing I have going for me right now. For me to intentionally ruin it would be retarded, yet that's what I nearly did.
I know you said it's alright, but I hope you can forgive me.