I'm not great at it.

And I looked at myself. It took me a bit to figure out how I apply myself as a selfless person.

Now, it's a matter of conceit versus usage. The conceit of confidence can be somewhat negated by "selflessness". And you know, I realized that rather than helping the traditional less fortunate, I merely help the unfortunate.

That is, by entertaining.

I'm not so good at making a real difference, and it doesn't come naturally to me. What I'd rather do and improve my own self-worth in the process is entertain. Most of this, of course, is when I can think up some funny shit. This ain't always happenin'. Sometimes it's musical shit. In any case, I've found myself going an exceptionally long way to make a joke laugh. Often, I put a lot of effort toward just getting a single, solid laugh. I'll build something up just so someone can say, "That's awesome."

Maybe people appreciate the extra effort more. I don't know. Russ once told me how funny I was in an applied medium, and I think that's my charity. I want you to laugh. I want you to be happy. I want to lift your spectre of depression, if only for a minute, and I don't care if it takes me two hours of tweaking to do so. If you're not laughing, well, you might at the next one.

Sure, I want people to like me. Who doesn't? But you could say that for any charity. I'm not so good at feeding the poor, but I could make them giggle a bit.
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