i don't think i'm all the way there yet, or that i just got there. it's a long process. but i was just thinking...

i don't have many of the naive ideals of youth concerning adults, it seems so much attainable to be one.

i feel as if i could support myself if i absolutely needed to.

i think my habits are getting a little better.

my career of choice seems attainable (well, i suspect it will, depending on how the rest of college goes)

i guess the biggest one is that today i finally figured out my loneliness.

i know plenty of people at school. and i could be hanging out with people on a daily basis. that was the plan, y'know. college was where i would meet my friends.

but then i met diona.

so instead of every weekend calling up "the boys" and going down to the cinema or hanging out up round there (which i'm sure would get old fast) or seeking out new friends with which to hang out, i have a girlfriend. i'm the only one with one. but i have one.

when i was speaking to my mom on it, she said that she doesn't maintain too many friends - my aunt, one she said she sees twice a year, and someone she'll never see after my brother gets out of boy scouts. but i figured that's sort of superceded by my dad, my brother, and me. we're pretty good company.

and the same can be said of diona.

so i guess the final stage is saying that i would love to see my friends more often - i mean, i do love them. but i have diona, and that makes up for everything.
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