5:11 a.m.
March 03, 2007
i got a few more glances than i'm used to on the train today. no reason. the bus driver told me that i was doing something that is a habit i have to break, but as proud as she may have been for mothering me, i wasn't doing anything wrong, so it wasn't for anything. i know everyone likes to seek out those told-you-sos, but the bus came as i got to lawrence, and it ain't her business, whatever she was saying, whether it was about being out late or being on the other side of the corner.

fuck it.

right here right now, i feel like something is missing from my life, but i can't figure what. i feel like i'm propelled toward mediocrity this semester, that this'll be the semester i finally fall apart. and then i figure that things were fine two hours ago, so there's no sense in fretting when i'm cold and tired.
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