riffs on two (2) people.

today, i played some of the best videogaming of my life with russ. all cylinders were go. it was frantic rts, very stimulating, and the best i've ever done in any games. which is a refresher from passive enjoyment. i like being stimulated like that.

i reached a point tonight where russ was talking a lot and i lost my train of thought. that's alright, but what disappointed me about that is that i really can never finish talking to russ - our conversations usually can last for hours and hours on end. and we did have a lot to talk about, as always, though we do shoot the shit the best when we're talking about people we both know, and with my continued misanthropy and his continued disconnection, those are fewer. lucky i'm not a gossip. it's funny that the gossip has sunk so low, being that i'm not a part of any social group, and almost all of my friends i work with best individually. it's just that i've found some of the best conversation individually is good gossip and analysis, and considering that i mostly only see people i can tolerate (by design), well, perhaps i should stick to politics.

i find that my relations with people are much more stable if i don't mire myself in any sort of social groups. the further i get away from it, the less there is to talk about intrapersonal operations, which i really don't think about until i get in the presence of one of my deep-conversation friends - usually russ or roxanne, occasionally claudia, sometimes bryan, and a resurgence of karl.

though i think so highly of myself that were i to design a clique simply by merit of the people i know, it would likely be:
a) very fat
b) harmonious.

life is wonderful.

second note, a much shorter one.

a lifting of undergrad stressors serves well to remind me how heavily i love diona, how i intend to be with her for the rest of my life, and exactly why i brushed off my annoyances and doubts through the spring (which is to say, that i knew that i knew better)
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